Halloween 2017: Lost all Halloween spirit.

2017 I built a great out and back 50 foot walk through on my rental property. I collected 106 lbs of food for the food bank and had several groups come through my haunt with smiles on their faces. Everybody had a good time and I was excited to have pulled off what to me was a successful Halloween season. Especially since I did it all myself. No assistance from anybody in my family and certainly no one in my friends group ( I have no friends to speak of so no friends group to pull help from.) So, 2018 came and I was running for state House and had no help to build so I scrapped my attempt at a yard haunt. 2019 saw me move twice. Once to Florida from Montana in March and then from Florida to Oregon in October and you guessed it... no Halloween. I sold most of my props and gave away a lot more. So fast forward or slow reverse to 2020... we have COVID-19, wildfires and politics, I have few Halloween props left and mostly decorations but no Halloween spirit. For over 15 years I was gung-ho about Halloween. My car of first choice is a hearse. I have a haunted tree tattooed to my RIBCAGE and I wear Halloween themed clothing that’s is now 4 years old yet for me Halloween is more of a point of sorrow and pain than a joy and excitement in my life. My wife says to me that Ross has Halloween and I just don’t care. I don’t want to spend the money on a half baked dream of haunting when I’m the only one. My kids don’t like helping but love the results of my work. But for me it’s not fun anymore and I don’t see it every growing into what I wanted. I feel shitty. I keep saying Halloween has been canceled so that maybe it won’t bother me as much as it does. I just wish I could make Halloween what it used to be for me. Anyway I just needed get this off my chest so...

2017 I built a great out and back 50 foot walk through on my rental property. I collected 106 lbs of food for the food bank and had several groups come through my haunt with smiles on their faces. Everybody had a good time and I was excited to have pulled off what to me was a successful Halloween season. Especially since I did it all myself. No assistance from anybody in my family and certainly no one in my friends group ( I have no friends to speak of so no friends group to pull help from.) So, 2018 came and I was running for state House and had no help to build so I scrapped my attempt at a yard haunt. 2019 saw me move twice. Once to Florida from Montana in March and then from Florida to Oregon in October and you guessed it... no Halloween. I sold most of my props and gave away a lot more. So fast forward or slow reverse to 2020... we have COVID-19, wildfires and politics, I have few Halloween props left and mostly decorations but no Halloween spirit. For over 15 years I was gung-ho about Halloween. My car of first choice is a hearse. I have a haunted tree tattooed to my RIBCAGE and I wear Halloween themed clothing that’s is now 4 years old yet for me Halloween is more of a point of sorrow and pain than a joy and excitement in my life. My wife says to me that Ross has Halloween and I just don’t care. I don’t want to spend the money on a half baked dream of haunting when I’m the only one. My kids don’t like helping but love the results of my work. But for me it’s not fun anymore and I don’t see it every growing into what I wanted. I feel shitty. I keep saying Halloween has been canceled so that maybe it won’t bother me as much as it does. I just wish I could make Halloween what it used to be for me. Anyway I just needed get this off my chest so...